Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Hurt

It hurts to know that you have found love in such short a time. It hurts to know that you have just been playing with my feelings. It hurts to know that I have waited in vain. It hurts to have not told you. But I know it hurts a lot to be rejected so I just have all these to myself. It hurts to know that this love of mine is unrequited. It hurts to know you have found your true love much sooner than me. It hurts so much to know that you aren't mine.

Good luck to your love life. I hope it does have a happy ending.


Thursday, October 14, 2004

It's time to let go...

I guess this is it. I guess this is the answer to my question. And I'm still the victim. I'm the unfortunate woman. I should have let you go when you told me our love story doesn't have a happy ending. I should have realized that you meant every word of it. I guess I made a fool of myself. But this time,. I'll make it true. I 'll make it firm. I have to let you go. I'll put off every flicker of hope. You're just not the one. ..Painful, but thank you anyway.

It's time to say goodbye. It's a lot better to let go of the feelings no matter how hurting it is than go on fighting when it's only me doing it...good bye!

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Have you finally found her?

It seems like you are getting along well. I do hope both of you had found each other. I do hope you are happy with her. I do hope you have finally found love and found someone to share it with. As a friend, I always wish the best for you even if it would hurt me. Well, what can I say, I am just one unlucky girl. And as usual, you aren't still the one. I am just thankful for everything I went through. I am certainly grateful that for a while you made me feel so good about me. You made me feel that out there in the vast and complicated world, there is someone like me, someone who shares the same interests, thoughts and dreams. I've experienced how it is to be in love and experienced the pain, hurt, excitement of it all. Though we never went really far and never got to say what we truly feel, I'm just happy of it all. I just hope one day, someday, we could talk, as mature individuals, of what really happened between us and if what we had was real. Or what you truly feel for me. And I hope things would never be too late. And despite the pain you have given me, though you may not know it, I still would want us to be friends, yes, very very good friends. Bear in my mind that no matter what happens, I will always be here for you. Good luck with this new path you're treading. I wish you all the best with her. =)

I Finally Told Her

At last, I was able to tell her. At last, my pretensions are over. Well, with her, of course. Funny it all seems how we have fallen for the same guy. Funny how we were smitten by his charms. Haha...We could just laugh about everything!

I have indeed found a real friend in her. I wish this would be a start to finding answers to my questions. No matter how hurting it would be...No matter how painful the answers are. No matter how surprising they are, I just want the answers. Maybe I'd have to wait. I will. As long as I'll find them. While I wait, I'll enjoy myself. Enjoy my life. Time, as always, still holds the key to everything.

My dear friend, I am so blessed to have you, so blessed that we are in this together. I pray you will be able to find Mr. Right. I pray that God will lead you to the right man. The waiting may seem long but it's always worth the wait.

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