I wasn't a good leader as I would say now. But back then it was okay. But I do remember once, I was 11 years old then when my team member blamed me for a failed group activity. He/she said I wasn't acting like a leader at all. Because I am a timid person, afraid of what negative things others may say, afraid of taking the first step, I was not able to function effectively as our group's leader. I didn't delegate, called meetings, just waited for miracles to happen, or when the deadline was up.
Now with my first stint as a people manager, supervising a small group, there is a feeling of history repeating itself. I am struggling dealing with differing personalities. Shyness overcomes when asked to speak my mind in meeting with bosses or expats. So many times I feel very much challenged and other times frustrated. It is isn't easy to be a leader, a manager, a supervisor.
This is not my comfort zone, I must admit. But where do great leaders start? Where do winners emerge? It is always in difficult situations. The rise to greatness has never been easy. Winning isn't just about luck. It is those who persevere who will emerge victorious.
In my two years in this role, I have struggled. I have made a lot of mistakes yet I have learned a lot from them. I will stick to this role and I will show them that I am a strong spirit. I will withstand this storm.
