i might as well enjoy this friendship we have and not expect much from you. and like what our friend believes, cherish every person that comes along your way, i will cherish you. now i realize what this truly means. i'll cherish this friendship and whatever happens along the way, i'll always be your friend. i'm not expecting much from you but that i can assure you i'll give everything i can for you, all for the sake of our friendship... =)

huh! it's really tiring...all these guessing games...i'd really like not to like you so much coz they say that the guys you'll end up with will be those u really don't like. and i'm afraid of really losing you. this is really the first time i have liked a guy this much and as they say this is just the beginning and that i'm really bound to lose you or get hurt. i don't want to like you so much. i know you really like her. i can sense that you are trying to get yourself near her and distancing yourself from me. if you truly like her, there's nothing i can do. i cannot teach your heart. i don't want to think about you anymore...i'd just would like to laugh on all these things...this is just the start...i know i can't have you...you deserve her, not me,some fat ugly woman... this is sad, but if it is the truth, i have to accept it. it hurts, really, but this is just all about it.

i still think of you most of the time...and when you come near me, how i wish i could hold your hand or give you one huge hug. i don't know how long i will continue this illusion. i know the chances are slim, yet i still hope that someday you'll know, someday i'll be able to tell you and yes, someday you'll feel the same way for me, too. this is really hard, you know, always guessing (and hoping) what's in your heart. is it me or is it someone else? i haven't really told anyone you know about these very special feelings of mine. i'm afraid that this would strain our friendship. and if you should notice, i haven't really shown my feelings for you, even a bit, or if i had, it must have been so little to notice. i really don't want to assume coz i know how much it hurts to dream for things that will never ever be yours. i don't want to go so far and then find that i just have to throw this love away.