i still think of you most of the time...and when you come near me, how i wish i could hold your hand or give you one huge hug. i don't know how long i will continue this illusion. i know the chances are slim, yet i still hope that someday you'll know, someday i'll be able to tell you and yes, someday you'll feel the same way for me, too. this is really hard, you know, always guessing (and hoping) what's in your heart. is it me or is it someone else? i haven't really told anyone you know about these very special feelings of mine. i'm afraid that this would strain our friendship. and if you should notice, i haven't really shown my feelings for you, even a bit, or if i had, it must have been so little to notice. i really don't want to assume coz i know how much it hurts to dream for things that will never ever be yours. i don't want to go so far and then find that i just have to throw this love away.