This is it!

This is it! My first out-of-the-country trip this year. I'm off to Hongkong with my mom and sister for a 4-day vacay. Mom and Sis (and her bf) are already there. Currently, they are enjoying Macau! I'm flying out at 710pm and this would be my first plane trip abroad alone! Excitement and nervousness are circulating my whole body now. I'm praying for a safe and truly amazing trip. I'm praying for Haring Araw to shine brightly this week especially in Hongkong but I don't mind light to medium showers here in Manila. Angat Dam needs a whole lot of water!

This would be my Mom's first trip abroad and I just want her to enjoy. This is actually my 60th bday gift to her. =) And I know she's very happy today!

Dear God, please make this trip truly memorable and joyous for all of us. Thank you.

my first 10k run!

I had my first 10k run last July 24 at the DKS Fun Run, a run for the benefit of the Savings Sights program of ERIS.

And I didn't expect to feel this much accomplished. I thought we'd finish it in 1:30 hr or more but we clocked in at 1:18hr. It's "we" because I had a buddy. Yes a buddy. And it really does help if you have a buddy in your runs especially if you're running a certain distance for the first time. Although we weren't running all the way (we walked a bit for say some 30 sec at certain points), but still it was an accomplishment. So happy that a 10k run is not impossible at all. I wish to run more 10ks in the future, then progress to a 21k and hopefully a full marathon! =)

Congratulations to all the finishers! Most importantly we were able to help the blind kids and give them a chance to see a brighter future.

Team W.Rec.K Runners

My team in the office is also my running team, isn't that cool? =)

When Lactacyd sponsored an all-women run race, me and my officemates/friends/runningmates decided to sign up for the relay. It will be a 21k distance with the 1st runner doing the 10k stretch, the 2nd for the 5k, the 3rd and 4th runners doing 3k each. Naturally, the 10k went to Yvette, being the fastest and most healthy amongst us. Then I took the 5k, Ruby and Beth did the 3k's.

What was also "cute" for this race was that there was a Best in Costume award. The teams can dress up any way they like so long as they use the official singlets. We had a lot of ideas but we ended up donning a cheerleader costume. We were in skirts of pink and white. And we had pompoms. We ran our distances in our costumes (and that includes the pompoms!). Some other teams were really creative - they had tutus, dressed up as women in generation (i.e. woman-baby, woman-teen, woman-preggy, woman-granny), dressed up as French ladies, etc. The top prize for the relay was a whopping 70 thousand pesoses plus gift certificates. And obviously if this was the prize at stake expect seasoned runners to be joining the relay. And as for us, recreational runners, we just settled for the fun and experience we gained from the event. At least we didn't finished last. =)

Team Woman Run by Lactacyd was last June 27 at McKinley Hill. (Yeah, the uphills really killed me.)

Celebrities I spotted were Iza Calzado, Tessa Prieto, and Rovilson Fernandez. I didn't see Karylle and Robin Da Roza but they were there.

Our team finished with a time of 2:27:34. I finished my 5k in (a disappointing) 37 mins. Not an improvement from my previous time. So I am a bit sad, but then what can I expect when I didn't really practice enough. And I was afraid the "blackout" spells will happen again. On the bright side, I was happy overall as we ranked 63rd among the 84 teams that joined. As I said we weren't last! And we finished the race, with no one hurt. And most importantly, we looked so darn cute in our pink and white ensemble.

Superduper saya!!!

Go Team W.Rec.K Runners! Till the next relay.

Addicted!

Adik! That's what a friend of mine said to me whenever I say I'm joining another fun run. hahaha... I must admit, she's right! I am addicted to running and so is she (hahaha) Kasama ko kya cya sa mga runs na yun.

Anyway, in May alone, I joined a total of 3 fun runs, almost one run a week.
May 16 - Chase the Sun,Neutrogena
May 23 - San Mig Coffee Bay Run
May 30 - Nature Valley Run

My PRs for the above were, 22mins (3k), 38mins(5k), 42mins (5k). Kinda slow but mind you in those 2 runs, I never walked (yah maybe I did a lil on Nature Valley). I just did a slow pace, just jogging not really minding my time but more of endurance.

I'm pretty happy with the outcomes that's why this June, I am signing up for 2 fun runs. And I'm running all 5k! My target is 30mins. I'll be putting speedwork into my runs this time.

It's kinda funny, when a month ago, I said to myself I probably will never move up to the next level. Running/jogging is just not for me. It weakens my legs and I just couldn't run straight for 15 mins. But it all changed when one night while running around the Boni High Street outer circle, I was able to run 3 rounds w/o stopping. I used the technique my unnamed coach told me - running is also a mind game, think beautiful thoughts when you run. Your body will tell you to stop but try to fight it if you can. Amazingly, I was able to do it! =)

I wanna keep on running and running. My dream is to run a marathon by the time I'm 30. And I wanna run the NYC and London marathons. If things go well, then maybe Boston Marathon. hehehe...why not? Anything is possible!

Adik!!!

Love Yourself. Be True to Yourself.

Bo Sanchez's blog post is just too long... So I'll just post the link... It's a really nice article. It made me feel good about myself, of what I have and of what I have not.

HaPPY reAding!

http://bosanchez.ph/be-true-to-yourself/

Run

True to one of my New Year's resolution, I started getting involved in running. I do hope I could really keep this up! I seriously need to lose weight. This started out with joining the Century Tuna's Superbods Run. It was just all for fun. My roommates and I have never really joined a fun run, and we just wanted to experience it (something we can add to our stories for our grand kids, and FB updates of course). And believe it or not, it is addicting! Then my friends from work wanted to join too and wanted to regularized our running activities,like we jog on TTH at Boni High Street. My second fun run was the Earth Day run by NatGeo. My time improved, from 30 mins (CT run) to 25 mins (Natgeo). Not bad, eh! Then I joined the PGH run, which was a different experience also. I had an instant running coach! He just came from out of nowhere. Turns out he was just a regular in that area, was just doing his usual jog. Oh well, I was glad he chose to coach me. Learned lots from him. :)I didn't improve my time in this run though, but that was okay, coz if I had been a bit faster, I wouldn't have met him. No names were given. No exchange of numbers. Don't know if I'll ever meet him again. But thanks, coach! whoever you are. My next run is in the next 2 weeks. That's the Neutrogena run. Then I have another one on the 30th of May. I will be running 5k! First time in history! The others were just 3k.

Well, we all start slow, and short distances but we will always get there in time. =) Then we get faster, farther...

Run now!!!

Predictions for B I S D A K S frenz

Here's my predictions for my Manila-based Cebuano friends in the next 2/3 years...

Let's do this by household.

J and R are starting to develop special feelings for each other. At first they keep this a secret to the group. But then nothing as special like this will be a secret for a long time. The group are happy for them.

F will finally have his wish of a baby girl.

MC will move to Canada. He's seeing a Chinese-Canadian lady.

H will try to work thing out with luvz B.

E and new beau will start their wedding preps. Everybody is invited to the wedding in Cebu!

L will finally realize that there's no hope for her and Ct. But some guy is trying to win her heart.

Ct still won't have a gf, but the group still will question his sexuality. Are Ct and housemate an item? Whatever his preference, we still luv him.

C will be very very active with her Christian community. She'll be able to convince housemate B to join.

B will break up with current beau. Career will be her priority.

K and M will have a baby.

E will get back with ex. Ex will finally move to Manila.

Ch will still be single and will be very serious with hobby photography and he will make money from it.

Bh will still be single. And she'll get another chance to travel to Europe.

Jo will propose to gf. Wedding will be in the next year after year of proposal.

P will vacay in Oz. He's seeing a wonderful girl.

And as for me, ahmmm, I will still be based in Manila. Someone is making me smile. I will be able to enjoy a vacay in a faraway land.

so there they are!!! I'm uber excited next year to check if any of these will come true.

Stuck With You by Huey Lewis

A favorite song...
Someday, somehow, I'm gonna be singing this song...
And I wish it comes sooner than I think..

We've had some fun, and yes we've had our ups and downs
Been down that rocky road, but here we are, still around
Thought about someone else, but neither one took the bait
Thought about breaking up, but now we know it's much too late
We are bound by all the rest
Like the same phone number
All the same friends
And the same address

Yes, it's true, I'm happy to be stuck with you
Yes, it's true, I'm so happy to be stuck with you
Because I can see that you're happy to be stuck with me

We've had our doubts, but we never took them seriously
And we've had our ins and outs, but that's the way it's supposedto be
Thought about giving up, but we could never stay away
Thought about breaking up, but now we know it's much too late
And it's no great mystery
If we change our minds
Eventually, it's back to you and me

Yes, it's true, I'm happy to be stuck with you
Yes, it's true, I'm so happy to be stuck with you
Because I can see that you're happy to be stuck with me

We are bound by all the rest
Like the same phone number
All the same friends
And the same address

Yes, it's true, I'm happy to be stuck with you
Yes, it's true, I'm so happy to be stuck with you
Because I can see that you're happy to be stuck with me

I'm so happy to be stuck with you
I'm happy to be stuck with you
I'm happy to be stuck with you

29th

So I just turned 29 yesterday...

Wow! I have lived this long on earth! I couldn't believe I'm so near to 30, that age when most people have accomplished a lot in their lives - traveled to a lot of places, owned a condo unit or a car, starting a family of their own, etc. And when I reflect on my own life and see how much I have accomplished, I could only sigh. Sigh for the reason that I still don't have my own car or house, haven't traveled enough, and have nothing on my savings account (though, I have been paying for insurance and pension plans, would they count?). I haven't really achieved much. I don't have that wow position in the company I work for. I'm just plain ordinary 29 year old woman, with no boyfriend. But you know, I don't actually feel poor and helpless. And that's what I realized yesterday, the 24th of March, my birthday - that I am uberly and richly blessed. When I count the wealth I have accumulated over the years - the friends I've made, the people I've met, the experiences I had, the family that I have - it's immeasurable. I can only thank the God Almighty for taking good care of me, for giving me all these blessings. Amen.

Love love love (Dear John and The Time Traveler's Wife)

Love love love is my theme this weekend. Saturday night we watched Dear John, an adaptation of Nicholas Sparks' novel of the same title starring yummy Channing Tatum and the pretty Amanda Seyfried. It was indeed a tear-jerker, emotion-filled, and so luv-full. What more can you expect from Nicholas Sparks? :) But then since I have already read the book, the movie didn't bring me much tears. Still, it didn't fail to capture my heart. I should say the essential emotions and the poignant parts of the book were captured in the movie, although some parts were altered. The ending itself was different from how it ended in the book. In the book, it wasn't mentioned that Tim died and that Savannah and John reunited. The book had a rather sad ending but the movie didn't. Well then, it's always like that. The books are never the same as on the movies. I'd also like to add that when you have already read the book and then you watch the movie after, expect that it won't really affect you as much as how it was when you're reading it. If I hadn't read Dear John beforehand, I'd have cried buckets of tears like my friends who watched with me.

This weekend too I have finally finished reading The Time Traveler's Wife. Finally, after a month with me! And what can I say? It's a wonderfully written book. Intensely romantic and sexy. Niffeneger is truly an artist. The way she uses words and how she describes the situation, the event, the place, the emotions - it's just fantastic. I am looking forward to reading her novel, Her Fearful Symmetry.

I am still trying to get hold of a copy of the movie, The Time Traveler's Wife. When I was reading the book, it's Eric Bana's face and body that comes to mind. It's his voice I hear. So I really do want to watch the movie and just want to know if he was able to give justice to the Henry character. As to Clare's character, I am unsure if Rachel McAdams was the right actress to portray her but then again her sweetness in The Notebook was undeniably just right for the young Clare.

So yeah, I do recommend watching and reading both books. Surely not to be missed for someone who loves to read! ;)

Happy love month!

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City (Oh i luv this!)

Lyrics | Owl City lyrics - Vanilla Twilight lyrics

2010

What do I want to accomplish on this year of the Metal Tiger? Here's my simple list:

Family travels
This year, I want my travels to be with my family. Be it a trip with my siblings or a trip with my parents or the most bongga would be a trip with the whole family. I already have a planned trip in July, and that's in Hongkong with my mom and sis. I wish and pray hard it'll be one safe, fun and truly memorable trip. This would be my mom's first trip abroad. I also pray she'll be healthy enough for this.

Career
I am still hoping that the pay raise and bonus would be enough to make me stay with my present employer. I still do wish to stay another year.
I want to deepen my knowledge regarding my job. So I wanna read books, articles etc about it.

Friendships and Love
I've really built stronger bonds with friends this year. And I've added a few more to this roster. On love? I guess this is the most unexpected thing in '09. It's complicated and one that I vow to uncomplicate this 2010. In simple words, END it. Yes, END that which makes it wrong and complicated. And I hope a new love comes and makes it easy to do.

Faith and God
I still want to keep my relationship with God. Go on reading the Bible. Continue those prayer times. Spend much more time with Him alone. In my busy and chaotic life, a moment with Him allows me to think straight and clear, and veer me away from danger.

Health
Be very vigilant when it comes to what I put into my mouth! Really, I want to avoid meat as much as possible. Eat more veggies and fruits. Exercise a lot! I plan to enroll in a dance class. Jogging and badminton should be done more often.

Childhood dreams
Now is the best time to start fulfilling my childhood dreams.

Money! Wealth!
Saving money has never been a walk in the park for me. In the past years, I've always made this my new year's resolution and I always failed. This year, I want to achieve it!!!! Credit card debt at end of the year should go down to PHP1k! Bank savings at an undisclosed amount (but I did mention this in my resolution '07).

And those are all of it! My fingers are crossed. I can do this!!! Help me, God.

The Year That Was...2009

I'd like to reflect the year that went by, 2009. The past year had indeed been colorful, and difficult and intriguing and I may add interesting too.

Laag-wise, I've been to more places this year than ever. Though I wasn't able to go outside Pinas, but yeah this year is my most travelled year. Here's a list of the places I've been to:
1 - Baguio (2nd time)
2 - Puerto Galera
3 - Anawangin
4 - Mt Arayat, Pampanga
5 - San Jose, Nueva Ecija
6 - CamSur Water Complex
7 - Star City, Pasay
8 - Boracay
Not too many, I realized but when compared to the previous years, 2009 tops. Also, this is my most sociable year - went to a lot of parties and met new people. But sad to say, of these new people I met no one was really love material. :P
On the love aspect, I don't know how I should say it... It is not worth sharing the details. My principles were put to a test. It's a complicated situation. It is one I never imagined myself being caught in. I just hope that for 2010, I will have the courage to uncomplicate it. I pray so hard for this.

Family-wise, lots of good and bad things happened. My sis Cha shifted course in college, not sure if this is bad or good. But I think it is both. Christine got a real job as a nurse. But she failed her NCLEX. Mama was able to travel to Manila alone (considering that last year she could hardly walked on her own) but later of the year, she got hospitalized which got all of us very worried. My bro sold his car. Finally he realized it's just too expensive to maintain one. And he bought himself a DSLR, instead. Lola wasn't able to go home on a night. She probably got lost on the way home. This is something we still don't know what to do to prevent it. My lola is already "ulyanin". :(
One good thing anyway for me was that I was able to spend both Christmas and New Year in Cebu with my family after 2 yrs of spending only Christmas with them.

Friends? I got new set of really good friends this 2009. I mean really good ones, ones you can keep forever. I had new set of housemates and neighbors. Sometimes, life had not been easy with them but all in all I learned something from them; underscoring my belief that each person is a lesson.

2009 had indeed been an eventful and controversial year. Good and bad things happened. The good to keep me smiling and hoping. The bad to make me strong and to make me declare I have truly lived and loved!

Thank you and goodbye 2009, hello 2010!

I got a book this Christmas!

I love books, so uber in love with them! So that if I am able to purchase a new one or if I receive it as a gift, my spirits shoot up to the high heavens! This Christmas, I am thankful to my manito/friend/neighbor Julius for giving me the book - The Time Traveller's Wife. I wasn't really expecting to get hold of this. It is quite pricey and the minimum budget of our kris kringle was 200 pesos. But my manito is richey! So what is a little over 200 pesos in excess of the minimum?! I actually had 3 choices in my wishlist - Body Shop GC, TTTW,or USB storage device. I don't know why he decided TTTW. But I am glad he did! Thanks again Juls!:)

I brought the book with me on my Cebu vacation. I was really early at the airport so the book was such a good companion while waiting for my flight. I've read 1/16 of the book and I can say it is indeed a good one. I like the way that the story is told in alternating first-person perspective of the two main characters - Clare and Henry. The author's way of writing is so descriptive, so full of emotions. You could really feel the intensity of love, frustration, heartache, and longing. Read below a brief description of the book from Wikipedia. (Btw, there's a film version of the book. I am dying to watch it. Still looking for where I can find it - pirated copy from the net or DVD/VCD).

The Time Traveler's Wife, published in 2003, is the debut novel of American author Audrey Niffenegger. It is a love story about a man with a genetic disorder that causes him to time travel unpredictably, and about his wife, an artist, who has to cope with his frequent absences and dangerous experiences. Niffenegger, frustrated in love when she began the work, wrote the story as a metaphor for her failed relationships. The tale's central relationship came to her suddenly and subsequently supplied the novel's title. The novel, which has been classified as both science fiction and romance, examines issues of love, loss, and free will. In particular, it uses time travel to explore miscommunication and distance in relationships, while also investigating deeper existential questions.

As a first-time novelist, Niffenegger had trouble finding a literary agent. She eventually sent the novel to MacAdam/Cage unsolicited and, after an auction took place for the rights, Niffenegger selected them as her publisher. The book became a bestseller after an endorsement from author and family friend Scott Turow on The Today Show, and as of March 2009 had sold nearly 2.5 million copies in the United States and the United Kingdom. Many reviewers were impressed with Niffenegger's unique perspective on time travel. Some praised her characterization of the couple, applauding their emotional depth; others criticized her writing style as melodramatic and the plot as emotionally trite. The novel won the Exclusive Books Boeke Prize and a British Book Award.

Can't wait to finish reading TTTW.

I leave you with this quote: "Why is love intensified by absence?" Clare.

Romance Revisited

One of the nicest, bestest gifts I got this Christmas is the 'Romance Revisited The Love Songs of Jose Mari Chan' CD of Christian Bautista. Last time, I posted that I saw Christian in person. So it is such a wonderful thing to receive his latest album as a gift. I have listened to it so many times and I am just in awe of Christian's voice and the romantic tone of it. There is truly no other singer who can rightfully sing Jose Mari Chan's songs but Christian Bautista.


Thanks a lot to my roommie Helena for giving me that CD! Luv u dai Lena! May you be blessed immensely this 2010. I know what you're wishing and hoping for. May God bless your heart and dreams!

why

why do i still have questions i wanna ask? why do i still want to spend a few moments with you alone? why does it pain me that you have kept your distance when that was what i had asked? why am i missing you? WHY??!!!!

WHY (Avril Lavigne)

Why, do you always do this to me
Why, couldn't you just see it through me
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all
Do you expect me to believe
I was the only one to fall

I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me

Are you and me still together
Tell me
Do you think we could last forever
Tell me
Why


Hey
Listen to what we're not saying
Let's play
A different game then what we're playin'
Try
To look at me and really see my heart
Do you expect me to believe, I'm gonna let us fall apart

I can feel I can feel you near me
Even when you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me

Are you and me still together
Tell me
You think we could last forever
Tell me
Why

so go and think about
whatever you need to think about
Go on dream about
Whatever you need to dream about
Then come back to me
When you know just how you feel, you feel

I can feel I can feel you near me
Even though you're far away
I can feel I can feel you baby
Why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell me

Are you and me still together
Tell me
You think we could last forever
Tell me
Why

You made my day!

Absurd, jologs, baduy as it sounds but I don't care! And I don't mind telling people that I met,aahhh, not really the right word, better yet say, I saw HIM, in warm flesh and blood! My eyes couldn't believe it! I saw him. So close. Today. Where? Well, my ex-teammate invited me and some friends for some pizza and soda at S&R to celebrate his bday last week. What such a lucky day! What such a lucky fan! Almost on our last bite, Arse's current teammate mentioned that there's an 'artista' near the exit door. We all turned our heads, and lo and behold, there he is, my dream guy-tedengggg! --- Christian Bautista. The excitement and all that comes with seeing your idol, your dream guy, your whatever, I had it that moment. The downside of that day was that none of us was bringing a celfone. Well Arse had a cellfone but his was lowbatt and he thinks it was a bit jologs. So we weren't able to take a pic. No photo memoir. How sad =( Nevertheless, the important thing is I saw him. And got a lil closer. And I walked back to the office giddy and happy. He just made my day. =)

CAN'T FIGHT THIS FEELING (Reo Speedwagon)

I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold OUT forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I WANDER,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever THOUGHT I MIGHT.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crashing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

My Childhood Dreams

I am currently reading Randy Pausch's The Last Lecture. And the book in so many instances talks about achieving your childhood dreams. So it got me thinking and asking myself if I have actually achieved my childhood dreams.So here a took stock of my chilhood dreams...

1 - I wanted to learn ballet. I so remember when I was a child how I loved doing pirouettes (in a child's way), and swinging my arms around the air just like a ballerina. Back then, Lisa Macuja was an icon. In fact, when she did a show at the cultural center in my school, I was able to ask for her autograph. I and a couple of classmates sneaked at their rehearsal. I felt so much honored to have met her. Ironically, I haven't seen any of her shows.

2 - I wanted to study painting/drawing. Kids were usually enrolled in just about any kind of classes during summer. My parents had me took piano, keyboard and swimming lessons back then. But they were never able to enroll me in painting/drawing lessons. I recall that there was one time I asked my mom that I really wanted to learn painting/drawing. Not sure why it didn't happen. Maybe because it was a bit expensive or maybe because they saw I didn't need it much since I had an inherent talent. Well, I was really good in drawing then. I won a poster making contest, joined a painting contest (but lost), always asked by friends to draw their paper dolls, etc. I really wanted to develop this talent...But I guess it just never happened. I think I have lost my creativity and I swear I want to bring this back. I still am itching to study painting.

3 - I wanted to own a library. I wanted to own a gazillion of books. This has largely been influenced by my father and my aunt. My first storybooks were given to me by my aunt. These books were Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, Cinderella, and The Ugly Duckling. I truly treasured these books. Sad to say I don't know where they are now. My aunt also introduced me to detective novels Nancy Drew, Bobsey Twins, and Hardy Boys. When I was 10, I started borrowing these books from the school library. And yes I was able to own a Nancy Drew book.
My father's influence came from the fact that he had quite a collection of books at home. These were mostly religous books. I never really read them (though I was able to use a few of them as references in school work). I just so loved flipping through their pages. And I was happy with the idea of being surrounded by his books. He also had a bunch of Reader's Digest which he used to subscribed when he was single. I read some of them and yeah I could say RD's articles and stories years ago were more interesting (and many). Over the years, and as I grew up, he continued to buy me books but stopped when I was able to afford them. My affection for books hasn't changed. I may now have my own "collection" of books. But still they aren't enough to call a "library".

And so they are just three. Just three childhood dreams. These are all I could remember and all these I have not achieved fully. Studying ballet will never ever be fulfilled. It's too impossible to learn this at my age. I'll get broken bones and frustration. In replacement, I can watch a Lisa Macuja performance. How about studying painting/drawing? This is never too late. I still can do this. I've seen a school not far from where I live. I can try to inquire. Surely, this will be a to-do thing for me next year. What about owning a library? Well, I am doing this now bit by bit, little by little. I have my books, and there are more to come. To where and how they should be arranged still remains a vision. But I know it is going on its way to that.

By writing these childhood dreams of mine, I feel excited and rejuvenated. It reminds me of my "happiness" as a child. It takes out stress and work burdens.

Since these dreams are still a work in progress, I have vowed that they shall be fulfilled no matter what. Tomorrow I'm going to call that art school. =)

TRY (OST - Fame, sung by Asher Book)

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me
If i ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But i'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am i catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But i'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me