i hold back

There are certain moments in one's life that you can't believe they are happening and so you just want to hold back and not get carried away. This is one of those moments I have now.

I am holding back because I am unsure.
I am holding back because I could be wrong.
I am holding back because I don't want to get hurt.
I am holding back because I might only be imagining an idea. I might be making up.

I have my reasons. I hope that they won't get me wrong.

Another Difficult Conversation

Who says they go away?

I've had another difficult conversation again today. I feel bad. I feel frustrated. When will I ever get this kind of conversations right? I don't know. Maybe years of practice will. Maybe I need to expose myself of such things...maybe, maybe I'll become better...

There's so much heaviness in my heart today. I wish I could have done better. But these are all regrets now.  We both learn from the struggle. We both learn from the experience.

I hope your maturity will help you overcome this.

I have to move on. We have to move forward.