arguments, initiatives, whatever...

Today, I had this little clash with my SV. There was a bit of disagreement. I wanted this and she wanted that. I tried to reasoned out but my reasons were not heeded. She instead took it as "I am not following instructions." She raised her voice and told me that if I don't want to do as what was told by the superiors (not including her) then I might as well talk to the superiors myself. What I didn't like was the fact that she raised her voice, and made it appear like I don't have any right to say anything at all. She constantly speaks about taking initiatives, yet here I am trying to initiate something, and her not even trying to understand my side. What I don't understand is that there's this another suggestion of the superiors that she's not taking because it is impossible, and here is another thing that she's taking which to me is not practical but she insists on it because the superiors say so. I don't really understand her...Or she just doesn't want to be defeated...

I rarely take a stand on things I believe in. I rarely stand up for something that I feel is right. And when I try to make a stand, or when I try to make a point, it's taken against me.

Well, naturally, I am not "maldita" and I don't like so much arguments, and when I felt that if I insisted, my SV still wouldn't acquiesce so I decided to just keep quiet and follow her instructions. Para matapos na ang lahat. And she could keep her mouth shut! She then proceeded with a lecture on initiative, on trying to learn a lot of things out of our stay in the company, to make the most out of the opportunities... Of course, I do agree at this point. Well, she has always been saying this. And for some reasons, these "lectures" do strike into my heart. I know very well that sometimes I have not been very productive, or that I have not made any initiative at all. My colleagues would tell me that no matter how many suggestions you have, they still don't matter. Rarely are they recognized at all.
Sometimes, I'd think I have become lazy in this company. And it makes me ask, "Is it me, or is it because of my lazy officemates? Am I affected by the boredom and frustrations they have felt? Why can't I seem to excel here?" I have a lot of questions, some with answers and some none. I still continue to ponder what's the best thing I can do while working in this company. I have been thinking that maybe it's time to move on...

Bo Sanchez Talks about Desires

So finally i have a ticket... lions city!

It's so cheap! Cebu Pacific is offering P1.00 fare for all its domestic and international flights. But one has to book between March 1-8 and travel between June to December. Wow! It's so cheap!
So without much hesitation, I booked last night a trip for two Cebu-Singapore and vice versa. I'll be travelling with my sister on July 12-15 this year. Finally, a tatak sa passport! hehe... Elma is going also with us... Now this is fun. I can't wait! :)