Jealous

I don't know why...I'm beginning to feel the most dreaded thing - jealousy, when there is nothing to be jealous about. I don't know why I don't want to see both of you so happy and then here I am in the corner watching you. It seems like you own the whole world...

I don't care what you do. It's none of my business.  I don't own you...and I don't have any right to your heart. For the meantime, I'm closing my heart to you.  I hate it when I feel this way...I can't think well and much more I can't work well.

I'll stop this stupid notion that you ever like me...How foolish of me to think that someone like you would ever be interested in someone like me. I wish I won't be there when you'll finally meet the girl of your dreams. I don't want to be there to face you. The pain...it's something I cannot bear.

Moving on...

sometimes one has to move on. leaving behind so many questions unanswered. one has to leave them just as they are and not confront the problem. one has to move away so things will be better. it does hurt but it would hurt more if one has to dig deeper into the issue. sometimes silence is the best solution. although silence complicates things and deeply hurts people , it is the better solution. it doesn't matter if only one gets hurt as long as the people you love won't get hurt. the only consolation would be that time will heal the wounds and time knows how things will end up. eventually everything will be at its right place.