darn! i should have realized it long before...he does not have any feelings for me. i'm just a friend. and all along, those moves, those words, they meant nothing to him. i'm so stupid. This is the second time and surely this means something. It means it's time, time for me to wake up and stop dreaming. I gues it was just right and meant to be that i went away and she and him stayed here coz at those times, there were no disturbances, no eyes and ears to watch and hear them. I guess their feelings were unleashed, and i guess that time was just right. i should have known all along that those songs he sang weren't meant for me but for her. now, i know why he wouldn't carry my things for me, now i know why he wouldn't accompany me. how stupid of me! how desperate have i gotten! i do not deserve a guy like him, who'd just play with my feelings...he doesn't deserve my feelings...i should have known that he had thrown it away the very first time i gave it to him... =(


OUT OF REACH
by Gabrielle

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me