I wish i could...

How i wish i could tell you how i feel...how i wish i could tell you how much you mean to me and that i like you so much...but it's not easy to say those things...i don't want to be hurt, to feel rejected. i know it's excruciatingly painful. Thus i resolve to take out all these feelings and throw them away and hope someone else will catch them, someone who'd return them to me with much joy and enthusiasm...and i still do hope that someone would be YOU...but for now, i'm letting you go, slowly pushing you to oblivion. I'll put off that flicker of hope for the meantime and bring it back when you are ready, ready to give back these feelings. If I could just have the courage...but i don't.